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Due to my many mood swings, I was not able to hold onto friends for long. Most of them just cut ties with me because I had so many problems and they couldn’t take me in because I didn’t ‘fit’. My boyfriend was the one person whom I thought would stand by my side no matter what. But apparently things were just the same with him as well. He took advantage of my position, knowing that I needed him by my side; he used to beat me up, curse at me. At times, he would call me a fat b*&^$, say I was a whore and all sorts of other things. Instead of bringing me comfort, he brought further discomfort, pain, doubt and hopelessness into my life. In the long run, I ended up being hooked to smoking marijuana just to seek solace.
In my search for succor, I at one stage, made friends with a Christian woman, who introduced me to the church, saying that only God was the answer. Finally, I thought that I had found what I had been looking for. When I got to the church I could feel the peace, the inner peace which is beyond description in human terms. I felt great and was willing to search and get to know God more. God was awesome, the greatest experience ever. Unfortunately, I was not accepted. Not unaccepted by God, but by some people who go to the church. As I started to get familiar with the place, people became segregative. They viewed me from my outer appearance, they judged me from my outward appearance. At times I would feel as if I was being laughed at; I felt judged and I couldn’t bear it anymore. I really wanted God; I really thought that was the answer to my problems. Actually, if you can't imagine anything better, think of God; I would definitely recommend this. Not all churches are the same, I was just unfortunate.
There I was, I looked around and thought that the world was closing in on me. I had no solution…. I was born to be loved, cherished, uplifted, inspired and motivated. I was born to make friends and be befriended. I was born to be a daughter and to have a father and mother. I came to this earth to find peace and comfort, none of which I found. I am dead now just because of what you uttered. Another person could die from this, be cautious about the things you say.
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Joseph-Peter
A wise man once told me that there are only two best weapons that you can have in this world: a pen and your mouth. The good thing about these two weapons is that they don't run out of ammunition, unless you decide to stop firing. That ammunition is words.
I am a person who is vocal but I have come to know that when I write about something, I write it with total consideration and commitment, more so than I do when talking. I have a passion for writting. I believe that scripts are capable of changing lives of many - including the author.
I trust in words and as long as I play with them in the right way, they are able to get me either into or out of any situation.
Let words battle it out for you.
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Things u say Rebecca | Jul 24th, 2005
WHat an inspiring piece of work. I am a mother and willhold this story to my heart
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
wow lulia luong | Dec 13th, 2007
i tihnk its very touching and its like a painful ife..with a clear ending..
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