I sink into the oblivion my mind yearns for
As I fall to my knees I see my final destination
and I'm frightened no more
I know I'm not alone
not only do I long to die
wanting to be free of this life
No, not only I
I remained in the illusion of acceptance as long as I could
but reality finally dawned on me
Hunger and frailty finally made me see
No life at all is a life in poverty
I'm lying on the floor
feeble and lifeless
Flashing before my eyes
is the life I would miss
waking with the burden of endless fears
floating in the flood of my own tears
Followed by deafening silence
I listen to its craving plea
It said: part with your sorrow
I remember vividly
All joy and happiness slowly diminishing and disappearing
behind the cruel veil of time
somewhere within my soul there is awareness
That salvation isn't yet mine
I feel people hovering over me
I feel them fighting for my life
I don't want to fight anymore!
I'm willingly letting go of all my strife
Unfortunately, I feel myself gaining consciousness
after the effort doctors made
Now I can sincerely say
I am afraid
« return.