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Published on: Apr 15, 2003

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Type: Short Stories

https://www.tigweb.org/express/panorama/article.html?ContentID=1198

I have known no love till you came into my life.

Every time you smile, all day’s anxieties seem bearable. My aggravation fades away as your subtle voice whispers its melody to my ears. Whenever we meet I distraughtly try to put my best foot forward, hoping that somehow you’ll notice. I never known how to gag but I tried anyhow just to see the child in your every laugh. I texted you and called you more often, pretending to be just a friend.

You gave me gifts and helped me with my school works. I did appreciate all your efforts. You shared with me your time and I did call you friend.

I have asked about your likes, queried about your dislikes. Chuckled upon hearing you spoke of the peculiar name of your father. I also ceaselessly pay attention when you recount the love story of your parents. I’ve called you Ate, thank God you didn’t call me Bunso. Then there was this moment that I asked whether you are already attached.

I said no, knowing that you might leave. I’ve told you my likes and my dislikes. I related to you my reminiscences from High School days with my peers. You seem to be pleased hearing my stories.

All my weaknesses I have made known to you. I have shown you that I am no superman. I’ve told you even the concealed moments that I’ve cried. You then comforted my weaknesses with your soothing smile. I felt strength growing inside me whenever you’re around. I promised you that I would always be here for you, to tap you on your shoulder, to slap your head playfully. I said that we’ll be just like kids enjoying each other’s company. However, there are times that I am troubled, whether you’re just feigning exultant when I’m around.

I’ve affirmed that I have not feigned any act. I’ve told you that I don’t fake emotions. Yes, you did tap my shoulder and cuff my head. You always tell me how picturesque I look. I tried not to get carried away with your flowery words. I sometimes assume those as part of your jokes.

I have ascertained to you the fact that my intentions were no jokes. I showed you that I am a gentleman and would endure anything even the whole of everything for you.

You hold my bag when you thought I felt tired. You’ve cosseted me from the heat of the sun, asked if I’m alright every time I cough. You were so concerned for everything that I am. Sometimes, it seems that you no longer trusted that I can do things on my own.

I have trusted you.
You always tell me that you miss me and that you care. But, hey, we have profuse studies to attend to, right?

That’s why I offered you my hand, a hand that you often ignored.

Because, I can do it on my own. I don’t want to bother you so much.

I’ve always told you that I would always stand for you. There are the times I even act a little zany telling you that you are my “only hope” I really didn’t care being crazy if it is for Love, more so if that Love is you. I have given up my pride because of you and would give myself only for you! But it seems to me that you just didn’t care and you just didn’t mind.

I did care and I did mind. I just have too many things to do.

I understand, no matter what I say, no matter what I do, I would always remain unworthy…undeserving even of your acquaintance! Thanks for being a friend!

I know you love me but…

But what? I guess you are right no matter what your ‘but’ pertains to. You wanted me to leave and the message of your dodging is clear.

You never texted till then.

I never texted because I promised that I’ll no longer bother you. I’m letting you do what you want. Till then, I have tried my best not loving you. But your memories have already left too much marks to my once unhurt heart…

You never did call and I’ve never seen you. I have texted you twice to query if you’re alright. I again called you a friend but you never replied…

You have shown me Love and for a while, let me felt Love. You have brought life to my lifeless soul. You have caused my heart to beat for the first time, without you my heart will never beat the same.

Without me, your heart will remain beating.

My hearts beats only for you, now that you’re gone, now is when my heart stops beating.

GGGGG

_______________
Christopher Bernardo is currently a student of the
University of the Philippines- Diliman,QC, College of Business Administration.

Award: First Place, “Diwang Adhika”. 48th C. Palanca Memorial Awards for Lit.
Address: University of the Philippines- Diliman, Quezon City
Narra Residence Hall
Contact No.: 0919-6401773

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by christopher bernardo
Published on: Apr 15, 2003
Topic:
Type: Short Stories
https://www.tigweb.org/express/panorama/article.html?ContentID=1198


I have known no love till you came into my life. Every time you smile, all day’s anxieties seem bearable. My aggravation fades away as your subtle voice whispers its melody to my ears. Whenever we meet I distraughtly try to put my best foot forward, hoping that somehow you’ll notice. I never known how to gag but I tried anyhow just to see the child in your every laugh. I texted you and called you more often, pretending to be just a friend. You gave me gifts and helped me with my school works. I did appreciate all your efforts. You shared with me your time and I did call you friend. I have asked about your likes, queried about your dislikes. Chuckled upon hearing you spoke of the peculiar name of your father. I also ceaselessly pay attention when you recount the love story of your parents. I’ve called you Ate, thank God you didn’t call me Bunso. Then there was this moment that I asked whether you are already attached. I said no, knowing that you might leave. I’ve told you my likes and my dislikes. I related to you my reminiscences from High School days with my peers. You seem to be pleased hearing my stories. All my weaknesses I have made known to you. I have shown you that I am no superman. I’ve told you even the concealed moments that I’ve cried. You then comforted my weaknesses with your soothing smile. I felt strength growing inside me whenever you’re around. I promised you that I would always be here for you, to tap you on your shoulder, to slap your head playfully. I said that we’ll be just like kids enjoying each other’s company. However, there are times that I am troubled, whether you’re just feigning exultant when I’m around. I’ve affirmed that I have not feigned any act. I’ve told you that I don’t fake emotions. Yes, you did tap my shoulder and cuff my head. You always tell me how picturesque I look. I tried not to get carried away with your flowery words. I sometimes assume those as part of your jokes. I have ascertained to you the fact that my intentions were no jokes. I showed you that I am a gentleman and would endure anything even the whole of everything for you. You hold my bag when you thought I felt tired. You’ve cosseted me from the heat of the sun, asked if I’m alright every time I cough. You were so concerned for everything that I am. Sometimes, it seems that you no longer trusted that I can do things on my own. I have trusted you. You always tell me that you miss me and that you care. But, hey, we have profuse studies to attend to, right? That’s why I offered you my hand, a hand that you often ignored. Because, I can do it on my own. I don’t want to bother you so much. I’ve always told you that I would always stand for you. There are the times I even act a little zany telling you that you are my “only hope” I really didn’t care being crazy if it is for Love, more so if that Love is you. I have given up my pride because of you and would give myself only for you! But it seems to me that you just didn’t care and you just didn’t mind. I did care and I did mind. I just have too many things to do. I understand, no matter what I say, no matter what I do, I would always remain unworthy…undeserving even of your acquaintance! Thanks for being a friend! I know you love me but… But what? I guess you are right no matter what your ‘but’ pertains to. You wanted me to leave and the message of your dodging is clear. You never texted till then. I never texted because I promised that I’ll no longer bother you. I’m letting you do what you want. Till then, I have tried my best not loving you. But your memories have already left too much marks to my once unhurt heart… You never did call and I’ve never seen you. I have texted you twice to query if you’re alright. I again called you a friend but you never replied… You have shown me Love and for a while, let me felt Love. You have brought life to my lifeless soul. You have caused my heart to beat for the first time, without you my heart will never beat the same. Without me, your heart will remain beating. My hearts beats only for you, now that you’re gone, now is when my heart stops beating. GGGGG _______________ Christopher Bernardo is currently a student of the University of the Philippines- Diliman,QC, College of Business Administration. Award: First Place, “Diwang Adhika”. 48th C. Palanca Memorial Awards for Lit. Address: University of the Philippines- Diliman, Quezon City Narra Residence Hall Contact No.: 0919-6401773 « return.